Dear Internet,
I lost my job in 2005, and had a complete mental breakdown. I have always worked, my entire adult life.
Right from High School, to a full time job. My teachers, never encouraged me to go to college. Actully, made me feel I was not smart enough to attend. So I worked hard at every job, I had. Some were kind to me, and regonized i was a quick learner. Anyhow, working at this non profit agency, my co-worker was an illegal alien, and needed a green card. I found out, and she was scared. I had just started college. June 13, 2005(yeah), two days into school. From 5-9Pm at night, working from 6AM to 12:30PM. I was tired and excited. She called human resources, amnd starred crying saying I can no longer wok with this woman. I had been employed there for 5 years. They came and told me, pointing a finger in my face, leave and do not come back until you can be cordial. I hired a Attorney, that told me they wanted to fire, you. But I saved your job. I finaly lost my job, August 19, 2005. I was denied any unemplyment benefits, I went to three hearings. Now it is December, my water is turned ogg, my lights, no oil in the furnace, no telephone. My credit is gone, again. Seven years to build up for nothing. I was so depressed. I was in college, but had no money for books, or food. Some days I was so hungry. i could only afford a cheeseburger at Burger King.
I would read books, in the store before class, each day. Then the collge told me, sorry you must pay, college is not free. Ok get out of our school, the state said, you need to be full time, to get aid.
Meanwhile, no job, no money. I would often go to food banks to feed my daughter and myself. I would talk to my crush in texas, and never once asked him for money. He made $10,000 a month and could have helped me. I never asked him for money. I wanted to ask, but could never ask. he did not care about me. So how can I ask him for money.
Anyhow, my house froze solid. Windows, were covered in a sheet of ice. My dog, was so cold, I would wrap him in blankets, and hold him until he was warm. I found a used old chair for him to sleep on, and put a space heater near him. Icicles hung from the sink, and tub. All my pipes burst all over the house. You could hear them scream, really weird sound. My back porch started falling apart.
I got a job, and had the water company turn the water on. But by then, water was coming out of every broke pipe. They are cruel, so they were like you owe us $130.00 for a cracked water heater, it is all your fault. My furnace, worked, but the hot water heater, was gone.
I got a new job, in March 2007, at a lower rate than I made, two years ago. But it paid my bills. First turn on the water. I was tired of collecting rain water. The water company is cruel, they charged me $130.00 for a broken water meter, and laughed you need a plumber lady.
Here I am in 2010, still struggling, but eating I have water, lights, heat. But no washing machine, no car, no dryer, no hot water.
So things that will change my life. A car ( i know alot to ask for.) A washing machine and dryer. A livingroom set.
